January 3, 2017
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I am not big on resolutions. I have never made one in my life. If a change needed to be made I just did it. I made a few changes in my life that I am beyond happy with. There were times where I wished and prayed change would come, or not come. Unanswered prayers. I used to be thankful for my prayers not being answered. It wasnt until recently that I realized that those unanswered prayers were actually heard. The big man upstairs did hear them. They were just answered in a way I did not understand or were too difficult to handle at the time to ralize that my life events happened just as they were supposed to happen. I am so thankful. I truely am blessed for the person who I have turned out to be. I'm not too bad!
I am going to start off this year with blogging more. If you want to read great! If not... that's fine too. I will write this as if you are sitting here with me talking. I will not pay attention to grahmer, spelling, typos... I may even stutter here and there. This is who I am. You will either love me or hate me.
I have been reluctant to post my life on here or social media really. I don't know why. But I want to start documenting my life and what I have to offer the world.
I was reading some blog ideas and it was suggested that I start off talking about why I started photography. I don't know if my story is interesting at all but it's mine and here it goes.
6/18/2011 Mike and I were married up in NY. We got there by RV with his family. It was the best wedding we could have had. Fun was had by all. Soon after we returned back home in TX I got really sick. They thought it was viral meningitis or Typhus fever. It was insane and intense. That lasted 9 months. In that time I was thinking of what I wanted o do for work and what could follow us from place to place as we were moving soon. I had just seperated from my employer that left a horrible taste in my mouth. I chose loyalty instead of money and got burned int eh process. (Follow the money, when it comes to employment) lesson learned. So I thought about becoming a photographer. That would be so easy and I would love it!!!
My husband found me a DSLR. A Nikon D5100. I was so excited and was confident that this camera was going to give me perfect photo! Everytime!! HAHAHA (Laugh with me)
That's one of my firsts!!! I was so distraught. I could not get this camera to get an amazing photo. LOL So I decided to read the manual.
It helped a little. Not much. It was all confusing and I really didnt understand it al all. So we decided to send me to school. The local classes were filled and we would be transfering out before the next semester would start. I found an online school. New York Instute of Photography. I would be able to start it in TX and take it with me to FL. Finish it up there. Soooooo....I read and I studied. I took photographs....
I started to see some light at the end of the tunnel.... (the begining I should say!)
Things began to click. I began to understand the ability of my camera was not inside the camera but inside myself. Once the relationship clicked. I began to start applying the knowledge. (And then again our world got turned upside down again. Michael got into OCS and he would be leaving for CT for 5+ months. We decided to stay with my parents in NY. Photography school was rushed. I wound up finishing while in NY but was no where near where I needed to be.
Looking back at these I really have an appreciation for my sister Lori, the girls, Kristina, Robin and their girls, Kelia, Frank Steph and Nicholas.... They really let me put them thrugh the ringer!!! They still do. My family has been very supportive. They have helped wiht advice, props.... LOL disasters and sucesses! Thanks guys if you ever read this! I really needed your help to do all this!
My biggest thanks are to my husband. He was the start of all this and has learned to let me do my thing. It will be ok. He is the type to plan things to the T. With all this you just really can't. Art is unpredictable. I remember the day we both realized that I am ok. This is not at bad thing in any way. He saw my first mini session at the church to be a diaster. At the start of it, I thought so too. But as the hits kept coming we made it thru them and it was a success. We made it! And we did ok. He said to me, " You keep on surprising me. Everytime I think things aren't going to work out ok. You somehow pull through. I always held his hand with this photography adventure. And my sisters'. Now, I got this. (I think).
So that brings us to today... I still feel that I am not where I need to be. I know I need to keep pushing myself more and more. If you're looking to get into photography. You're going to hear it a thousand times. Its not the camera... It's the photographer.